One More Battle Won – Repeated Anger

My repeated anger becomes a choking rope 

That coils around my body, brain, and soul. 

Swiftly shifting “fact“ to “fact,”

I blot out love, compassion… with corrupt control and

Connect distorted dots into an old distorted whole.

I struggle to make meaning, but collapse.

A double-bind!  

Could I win?   Perhaps. Then, No! I can only lose. 

For deceived, I believe that leaving anger means I lose.

Yet my constant anger also means I stand accused of sin and lose!

For in repeated anger there’s no faith! No healing, gratitude, or hope,

Only the tormenting, whipping-winding rope.

“Who will deliver me from this body of sin and death?”  The answer comes. 

He will! *

Anger recedes. Hope returns. One more battle won

On this daunting journey out of shadow to the Son,

Out of sin to faith and trust in the Three-In-One.                              

*I fully commit to being a doer of the Word, not a hearer only deceiving myself. (James 1:22)

 I will confess my anger and not let hold on to it (and give place to the devil.)  (Ephesians 4:26)

 I trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not unto my own understanding, 

but in all my ways I acknowledge him. He will direct my paths.  (Proverbs 3:5-6) 

Author's Note: Feel free to share this poem. Please do not make any changes and do note me as the author: Dr. Beth Blevins Cuje'  April 8, 2014